photograph by Sara Brennan

Fourteen children were in my first-grade class, but only five different messages came in the box of assorted valentines my mom bought for me to give to my classmates, so some messages had to repeat — you have my heart; be mine; somebody loves you — and I had to really think about who got which message before I printed their name on the “to” line.

Now take your time with it, my mom told me. Think about what it says.

She’s a card person.

She and my dad never gave each other gifts on Valentine’s Day — no roses or jewelry — but they always exchanged cards, and, to them, the message mattered.

In the early years of their marriage, my parents agreed to let the verse in the card reflect the year they’d been through. They searched hard for the right lines printed within; I remember standing with my mom at the drugstore while she read through card after card. Some years, the message was about struggles and perseverance, sometimes hardship and support; later, after 20 years of marriage, after 30 years of marriage, after 40 years of marriage, the verses acknowledged the passage of time; the messages spoke of patience and gratitude. And always love.

I’d pretend not to notice the private moment between my mom and dad at the kitchen table on Valentine’s Day, when they’d sit beside each other with their coffee and open their cards and lean into each other, his hand on her knee.

In 1995, my dad had open-heart surgery, a 10-inch-long incision down the middle of his chest. It took a long time for him to recuperate. While he was out of work, my mother doubled her hours, working 12-hour shifts, and then she’d come home and take care of him. When my dad started to heal, he took on the household chores, cooking meals, going to the grocery store.

That Valentine’s Day, along with his card, my dad gave my mother a gift for the first time, after so many years: an African violet with velvety leaves, overflowing with soft pink blooms. It was in a three-inch, green plastic pot.

I can just see him, my mom says now, laughing at the thought of my dad walking into Food Lion and spotting the display of plants and putting one in the buggy, breaking their long-standing rule. It had been a difficult year; Valentine’s Day called for something that he believed reflected not just their year, but also their life, something hardy and adaptable, a reminder that the things you care for always endure.

That violet now sits near the east-facing window in Mom’s townhouse; she’s repotted it four times. She keeps the soil moist and prunes away the older leaves. And maybe this sounds odd, but she talks to it, too, little messages that matter, and I swear, that violet, after 22 years, has two dozen blooms on it, so whatever it is she’s saying — you have my heart; be mine; somebody loves you — sure must be working.

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Hudson is a native of North Carolina who grew up in the small community of Farmer, near Asheboro. She holds a B.A. degree in English from the University of North Carolina at Greensboro and began her publishing career in 1997 at Our State magazine. She held various editorial titles for 10 years before becoming Editor in Chief of the 80-year-old publication in 2009. Each month, she works with the top writers and photographers in the country to produce a magazine that has garnered national attention, and in 2011 and 2012, Our State won consecutive Gold Eddies for “Best Issue” of a regional magazine in the country, the top honor from FOLIO: Magazine, the magazine industry’s leading publication recognizing editorial excellence. For her work with the magazine, Hudson is also the 2014 recipient of the Ethel Fortner Writer and Community Award, an award that celebrates contributions to the literary arts of North Carolina.

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